Red has a cold, the first one since her diagnosis. And her bg is all over the place, way to high, then too low, than high again. Now that we have a cgm, we can see it all in a nice rollercoaster curve. She started complaining about a sore throat the morning my husband went on a three-day conference, naturally. We have no family nearby, so it's just her and me, 24/7. I am glad that she gets a good night's rest, because I don't. It is either the cgm beeping, the routine checks at 10pm and 3am, or her waking with a nightmare and needing a story about kittens and puppies to help her fall back asleep.
The next morning, we cancel school and daycare, let the school nurse and our diabetes clinic know, and I inform my school (I'm a teacher) that I won't be coming in, once again. I can feel the pressure building, I have been out a lot lately, Red was diagnosed two months ago. And so we drink tea, read stories, she watches a movie, plays with the dog. And I worry. It has been four days now, my husband is back, at work, and I feel like life as I knew it is over. How can I possibly take good care of her while holding down a job? Will we ever get more stable bgs or is that just how it's going to be?
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